I am living in an energy deficit. I am in the red. I work all day, each day during the week specifically to get the big things done - my full time job and the basics at home: food and laundry, cleaning up enough to not live in a pig sty and paying the bills - those are the basics. I also sleep (at night) and check facebook, and exercise and talk to my husband and mom and maybe a friend or too, I shower and sometimes I pluck my eyebrows and also buy paper towels and shampoo at Target. I get THINGS done, but I rarely get ahead.
It infuriates me that I so rarely get to look at the other list of stuff, the interesting things or important, but not immediately pressing things. I have one closet full of belongings that I don't know what to do with and strangely that one closet is standing between me and total serenity and I NEVER get to that closet. There is not enough energy/time left to take on that stupid effing closet once I get all the daily stuff done. I had a teeny meltdown about it today and it reminded me of a post I shared a few months ago.
Today I feel mad that I am a Tired Girl and not an Energetic Girl - my eyes are all squinty and glarey about it. So, to pump myself up and remind myself that to have the good life I have to work a little harder then my body instinctively cares to do.
I am going to try and channel my anger this week into pushing myself harder, because I have interests, damn it, that are outside of just basic survival and I need to get some stuff done.
Here is my post from March.
A friend of mine posted this on her Facebook page last week. I'm pretty sure the guy in this pic is talking about his abs, which is cool for him.
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this dude's version of pushing harder MAY be different than my version |
Unlike many things on Facebook that we scroll over, this really stuck with me, but not in relation to my abs (poor abs - so neglected*).
Every day, because of this quote, I pushed just a little bit harder at different parts of my day to have a better tomorrow - even if it was something like read a few more pages in my book at night before falling asleep (I have a huge stack of books I want to read and it's hard to get through them when I fall asleep after one page OR accidentally shop for shoes on my ipad instead of reading any of them).
I won't bore you, with the laundry list of things I worked harder at - you would really understand what a Tired Girl I am if I told you, and possibly think my existence was small, or that I am a weensy bit koo-koobeans or something. So just assume I pushed harder at mastering existentialism or something kick-ass like that.
I just thought I'd share this, in case this gym poster changed your whole life, like it may have changed mine.
*Ab workout is on the to-do list that I lost.
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